Hey guys, it’s a beautiful evening to write blogs.
I want to say a big THANK YOU to you for taking out time to go through this blog lol I gotta say I get kinda ‘bleh’ when I at my stats and its not really how I prayed it’d be but then I’m not looking to be a blog celeb lol I just want to be to reach and touch someone’s life the way mine has been touched.
So! Lets get to it shall we…where did I stop?….chill…YEA! Spiritual Lethargy…what is it? Lol google is our friend. It is tiredness or as really spiritually grounded people say ‘spiritual laziness’. Most Christian blogs have been talking about it and they often associate it with backsliding and speaking from a personal standpoint IT IS backsliding! or the root of it anyway, now don’t get me wrong backsliding doesn’t always mean going back to the old ways because once a man is saved the old man is gone so there is no ‘old’ to go back to, backsliding in the sense that you used to stay on the word and pray for hours and long minutes but u find yourself saying prayers that last 5seconds or even that one minute everyone seems to b crazy about. The hunger you felt as a new born believer starts to get dim and that effort you swore you would make to stay in God’s presence starts to just feel like too heavy work. You start to wonder about the things you swore to drop, you start listening to that voice in your head telling you how difficult it is to keep the fire burning, how people sinned and got back on their feet and so u get the license to ‘just do it’, and then you do whatever it is you do then guilt sets in, the same voice tells you ‘you’ve messed up’ just keep doing it, you are not really saved because if u were you wouldn’t have done so and so. sigh
This was what I faced when I got back from the program, I felt depressed, like it was all just for nothing, felt like God wasn’t pushing me enough (which he doesn’t do by the way because we get to choose our actions), slowly I started deteriorating in my prayer life, soon my studying the bible routine got occupied with things I don’t even remember, I knew I was in trouble, but I was too lazy to do anything about it, I had dreams but then even the dream started getting fewer and I felt that was it, the holy spirit has been grieved and I was done. My once burning hot fire started looking like embers begging to be fanned, I looked for help in the journal I kept my studies, talked to people it, my friends were worried, my best friend/flat mate made it her job to remind me how my fire lit up others, and it wasn’t going dim but whenever she was done it felt like her words of encouragement creeped out of my mind and once again I was thrown into the endless depression I thought I had overcome. the WhatsApp group I had joined that had my fire going became another routine activity and I was struggling keep up, I began to have conversations with myself, talked down the things God did through me, told myself if I got lazy this early then maybe I wasn’t ready or maybe I just jumped and needed to take a few steps back. The Devil had won and I knew it but I was too weak, digging ditches and falling in them became an everyday thing.
lol, you may be expecting the part where I say and I did this and that and I conquered this thing, but the truth is…im still struggling but in the next post, i’ll tell you guys what I learnt and how I intend to put the devil in his place which in any way isn’t in my mind 🙂
Please post comments I’d like to hear from you, I’d like some tips for those that have gone through or are going through what I am, those that made the decision to be different, i’d like to hear from you whether baby Christian or oldies in Christ.
“Blessed are those that hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled” -Matt 5:6 (NKJV).
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness”- 1 John 1:9 (NKJV).
Dare to be different and take the devil on. God is crazy about you 🙂 so rest in His love.
God bless you. I love youu, God loves you more.
The21stcenturyyouth 